JadaDara

debt seldom i linger the singular tome. tv something something, lost in my room, time between work a listless strole, baccus bitches roam this place i call hole. hole, sweet hole. i owe som'in. i know the raunchiest pussy. i know the darkest places; tape of the love people you know wishes you been. i've worked the minimum wage. seldom i linger lost in this room sober in the eden, in this place i call home.

half a can of my last beer          i can't seem to find          just the right words          to describe my feelings for you,          but in good time          i'll write the dysfunctional rhyme          god meant me to. everyone's fallen from grace the shame burn as yesterday was Yes, Jess, I saw the NIN dot too as we came upon the empty streets as stillness found us, like the other side of the room but not alone, grey with patch-work greyer still as the shades of our distinction upon our so different faces grew longer, a concrete mirror of the greyest clouds as they fell upon us in the alleys where once we kissed;

One Shared Dream We road trip back to the scene of the crime. I drive because I need to control this desent this re-enactment, this betrayal back to Bremerton. We ride and you trust my grip on the car and you let me gas her up and pick the CDs sometimes. It's blinding driving through the glare of the sun on wet roads but I stare because it's looser than you think Dare I let it slip into the drink? To slide then would you and I be so bad? or glad that it's over? We are so near this suicide, one twitch to turn the wheel would steal everything back from the brink, to be together forever. A familicide actually, a promis

The Proverbial Deafening Silence After sexual release I don't sleep I can't give in to this devestating loneliness. You're an unkept girl now, that i can't keep, and bothersome to me but I don't have anything else to remind me of the time we were before this. To give me the technical support a hard luck case like me needs. I can see the caution in your eyes if you leave me does the clan break up? I clipped my finger nails future tripping over my fry toy and my ennui over you but you keep leaving me behind. It was So Nice After Fucking U. I knew your speed limit but I couldn't go that fast my little white pills seemed to mak

Seedy Dive or Double Entendre in the alleyway    Good    Music faded on the brick lay laid down to surround this seedy dive to which I've, as designate, drive you here for beer and to talk to strangers about your dirty bathroom sex that I know is not ours but at a rave I bet spinning LED lamps on e with the speed of the beat bumping out the stall door these the ptsd triggers are: wide casting glances at the meat in the cocktail lounge, the messages you cannot read in the company of me, and the casual talk of infidelity the boys and toys you had instead of my modest monogamy you should sit under the red lights I

Poly Molly's Falacy molly turns you from a queen to a quean as it's taken in your mouth like green m&ms with companions at hand to melt along your disrobeing tongue you confide your sweetest tooth misunderstood standing least uncovered they see you for who you really are rolling he seems comfortable with the story you told he takes it all in puts his spin on it it seems true because you want it to and so does he involutary xtc teeth clenching loss of inhibition blurred vision chills and sweating you need a shower in the dark with strobing lights you don't reconize yourself in his mirroring you don't want to you don t

Pulling Triggers, Dodging Bullets Sometimes I feel I am to blame for what happens on the Wet Spot's floor     what hangs on the dungeon wall (in the private rooms or in public view) blindfolded, bluffed, submitted Sometimes I can feel the heat of breathless pants, breechless fags, twisted knots groaning beneath the touch of unconcerned sympathedic caresses     -- that makes me laugh     at how silly you must look-- and find myself wondering if you let your boots touch the ground. Sometimes I feel it is my fault for not taking the advice you gave to find the spot that Lexx made you come and you came without infidelity or